Still Standing – Paperback

She survived the attack. Learning to live without blaming herself took much longer.

For years, she believed being a good Christian wife meant patience, loyalty, and keeping the family together. If she loved enough and prayed hard enough, surely their home would become safe.

Then her husband tried to kill her.

The frantic barking of their dog, Spot, interrupted the attack and gave her a chance to escape. But surviving that night was only the beginning. Her children remained frightened, reassurance failed to bring peace, and leaving the marriage brought its own grief and judgment.

As her former husband’s life unraveled, she struggled with questions that had no easy answers. Could she mourn the man she once loved without minimizing the harm he caused? Could she care for her children without treating every wound they carried as evidence of her failure?

At sixty-two, exhausted by years of guilt, she began experiencing grace differently.

Still Standing is an honest Christian memoir about surviving violence, parenting through trauma, complicated grief, and learning that God’s love does not have to be earned through endless endurance.

It makes room for faith alongside unanswered questions-and for a future that does not require denying the past.

Book Four of Memoirs of Faith by Karen Kazimer Shockley. Includes KJV Scripture, 30 reflection questions, and 20 prayers for personal reading or discussion.